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If Only... (Ontae) / Monday, February 21, 2011 @ 5:30 PM
The sound of the ocean waves, the cool breeze in the air; everything was perfect. Walking hand-in-hand, we just let our feet take us anywhere. The warmth of your hands made me feel as if this could last forever, and you would always be there. But then you let go and I could feel the cold emptiness in the air. You look to face me and whisper something in my ears. "I like you." Your hair brushes the side of my cheek and the scent of your hair fills the air. This moment felt so right yet there was something missing. "Jinki..." I call out but you turn around and walk the other way. Skipping like a child excited to explore something new, you slowly start to distance away. "Jinki!" I yell out once more but you continue to leave with that same smile you have on you face that brightens my day. But this time, it was not the smile I wanted to see. I try to run to you but my body doesn't listen. I try with all my might to try and stop you from leaving me but I stay standing while you continue to fade away. *I guess this was not meant to be* "Jinki...I..." I say out loud to myself and a warm breeze brushes my body, but why do I still feel cold? ---------- "Taemin, are you okay?" I wake up to see your worried face. "Yeah, I'm okay..." *Jinki.* "That's a relief, I was worried. Well, I'm going on a date with Kibum tonight. Will you be okay at home? Do you need me to take care of you?" "No no. It's okay; I can take care of myself. You go have fun tonight." "Are you sure? You don't look so good." *Please don't go.* "No, you need your fun. I'll see you when you get back." "Oh, okay then. Call me if you need anything." Then you skip away; this moment feels so familiar. I look to myself in the mirror. *I guess even in my dreams it just wasn't meant to be.* "Taemin, are you alright?" He suddenly comes in; the one I've been giving heart breaks all this time. Although he knows I'll never be able to offer him my heart, he still catches me when I fall and is always willing to do anything for me.
"Yeah, I'm fine Minho. Just had a bad dream." "I'll get you some water." "Thanks." I see the invisible scars in his heart that he has kept from all the pain I have given him. I know it is wrong to continue to hurt him like this but I just can't control myself to do that, so I know it'll continue to occur until the both of us get hurt in the end. "Minho?" He turns around to face me. "Why are you always so nice to me?" He gives me a slight smile. "Taemin, I really like you." Then he walks out of the room. Those words really stood out to me. I felt a pain in my chest, and it was not from the all the tossing and turning. I give a slight sigh. *If only those words were yours...* |
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